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VOTE VOTE VOTE!!! [11 Feb 2003|06:04pm] The "powers that be" have asked for the Creation audience's input on a Xena feature film. Please check out the pop-up poll at our site and register your vote today! http://www.creationent.com/ *it's a popup window so don't close it :P 6 comments|post comment

a quiz doesn't make my head ache go away :( [23 Jan 2003|06:42pm] [ mood | lethargic ] Which Angel character are you? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

NO ONE WILL FUCKING JUST LET ME DIE!!! [22 Jan 2003|08:34pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | The world swirling ] Fuck. 1 comment|post comment

OMG OMG!! [17 Jan 2003|08:03pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Fruit - Wild Angel ] Michelle Branch is gonna be on Charmed this Sunday!!!!!!! Squee!! Click! I just talked to Jenny cuz my people said she called (it was really kim who had called, thank god they said Jenny instead) and she and Kim want me to write or think of ideas for a dance drama they want to do in August. hee I feel honored that they asked me, I mean there are LOTS of people they know in the ABQ class and whatnot so wee :) post comment

[06 Jan 2003|09:33pm] [ mood | worried ] [ music | Voyager episode :) ] Twelve angels descended from Heaven, each putting a piece of themselves into those who would follow them.... Which Angel rests inside you? Challenge their trial to find out. "eeexcellent" and my head hurts my stomach hurts that is all ^_^ 3 comments|post comment

Stupid quiz! [27 Dec 2002|02:31pm] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | Xena episode :) ] Why Will You Go To Hell? brought to you by Quizilla I'm tired. I'm bored. I ate mint chocolate chip ice cream :) I hate this pill I'm taking. It gives me nightmares and keeps me awake at night. *sigh* 5 comments|post comment

Weeee!!! [21 Dec 2002|11:42am] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Spice Girls - Love Thing ] What's your Star Trek 'Ship? brought to you by Quizilla :) post comment

hee [17 Dec 2002|07:25pm] You are Slashy!Snape- you laugh in the face of Lily/Snape 'shippers. You spend most of your time angsting or plotting about getting Sirius Black, James Potter and/or Lucius Malfoy into your pants. On occasion, you can morph into Paedo!Snape because either Draco or Harry remind you of that older Long Lost Love [tm] of yours. You hide your desire/regret under a layer of obnoxious coldness. You're either, much to this quiz's horror, blindingly flirty and experience [Lubricatus!, anyone?] or puritanically sexually repressed [where's Harlot!Draco when you need him?]. However, after all the painful plot twists and u-bends, you get your man- go you. You are most likely to do down into history for making the largest [in every way *g*] number of appearances in NC-17 smutfics. The other professors are jealous. Which Snape are You? by Marett Graves With artwork by Laura Freeman The Ultimate *Which Harry Potter Character are You?* Quiz brought to you by Quizilla post comment

Leave it up to me to be stupid [17 Dec 2002|06:42pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Korn - Freak on a Leash ] Oh my god! I am so adicted to Severus/Lucius fanfiction! holy crap they are so totally meant to be! :) I'm so fucking scared I'll have to be sent to an RTC....If that happens I don't know what I'll do. Everyone wants me to go to one. you have to me there for at least 3 monthd but they can keep you for years too. EEP! ya know, that would mean I could graduate. I mean as it is I'm like handicaped cuz I won't be able to live on my own with out help and I deffinatly can drive. that makes me sad cuz all my friends do and I feel a bit scared when people start talking about cars or even looking at cars. I feel uncomfortable riding in a car. I'm stupid. but yeah... 1 comment|post comment

eeeeeeeww...hmm.. [07 Dec 2002|03:51pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | Mel B - I Want You Back ] What's your Harry Potter slash pairing?. By the superbly cool mortari of Serpensortia eeeeeeew... k, that's just soo wrong. and what's with all the little kid pairings! ya know, they're munchkins man! ... I think Snape and Lucius would make a beautiful couple! hehe...I think I'll read the second book just to get more info on them to write a fanfic *giggles insanely* 1 comment|post comment

surrrrrrrvey [06 Dec 2002|07:37pm] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | Michelle Branch - Everywhere ] Name: Gabrielle Age: 17 Gender: female Location: New Fuckxico Race: human Religion: blah Birthdate: may 15 Relationship Status: single :( Sexual Orientation: lesbian ;) Crushes: o.O -The Looks- Hair Color: redish-brownish Hair Style: wannabe, xena-like :) Eye Color: brown Height: 5'6 Weight: 120ish Shoe size: 8 Clothes: uh..whatever's clean Body Art: nothing permenent yet.. Odd features: um..my face.. Noticable features: my eyes + hair i guess Wanted body art: I'm not exactly sure yet..but I want a white(tinted rainbowy) tiger somewhere and I wanna draw somethin of my own and have the person tattoo it on ^_^ -The Personality- 5 personality traits: shy, depressed, sensitive, stupid, sweet (so I've been told..) 5 bad habits: retreating from people, cutting, randomly twitchingness, forgeting about things(like who's currently mad at who and shit like that), bad eating habits 5 fears: spiders, volcanoes, scary dinosaurs, people, being alone 5 compliments you've received: good artist, good dancer, cool socks...um... -Hobbies & Interests- Hobbies: dancing & artness and watching Xena and Buffy, drooling over Angelina Jolie hehe Interests: angel, angelina jolie, art, belly dancing, black, blades, bleeding, blood, bpd, buffy, callisto, carlos nunez, cats, charmed, chocolate, coffee, crying, cutting, dancing, dark angel, dark red, darkness, death, depression, drawing, drawing portraits, dreams, earth, edward scissorhands, faeries, fanart, fanfiction, fantasy, fruit (the band), gabrielle, gay adoptions, gay movies, girl interrupted, girls, godiva chocolate, hate, hot topic, irish step dancing, johnny depp, kate mulgrew, kevin smith 1963-2001 *sniffle*, knives, leaving, lesbian movies, lesbian music, lesbians, linkin park, love, m&m's, mcflurries, mel watson, melanie c, michelle branch, nature, night, nsync, oil pastels, online quizzes, orange juice, oreos, pain, painting, papa roach, piercings, pink, piper, poetry, purple, queer as folk, rain, rainbows, rasberries, red, sarah michelle gellar, sharp objects, shopping, si, sleeping, solo dresses, spice girls, star trek voyager, suicide, tara, tattoos, wicca, willow, women, women of star trek, xena {Current} Bands: Melissa Etheridge & Linkin Park & Fruit Song: Linkin Park - Place For My Head Time: 7:08pm Feeling: bored/annoyed/depressed Want: chocolate Longing: for chocolate Missing: Rhonda Love: chocolate Hate: parents Taste: nothing Food: ... {Favourites} Band: Spice Girls Song: I can't pick just one :P Movie: Girl Interrupted TV Show: Xena Actor: Johnny Depp Actress: Angelina Jolie Celebrity: Kate Mulgrew Instrument: the harp Sport: um..dancing? Activity: dancing Food: chocolate Drink: um...oh! I had this really good juice once, it was fresh strawberry/orange juice..it was sooooo good. Drug: bah Alcohol: this Hot Damn stuff Animal: white tiger/cats Place: my dreams Car: I don't care...as long as it runs and is crappy on the outside so I can paint it :) Scent: the way Rhonda smelled Perfume: whatever she used Flower: rose Color: black Number: 5 Letter: X Season: I don't care Music genre: rock Store: Hot Topic Restaurant: um...Baskin Robins :) Clothing style: comfortable yet purdy ^_^ Piercing: belly & ears & tounge :P Clothing article: underwear..cuz it'd be gross to wear none A Crush: how can you have a favorite crush?! {Last Time You} Kissed somebody: like a month ago Hugged somebody: Wednessday, the cool Vicki lady from the hospital :) (I saw her at Smith's!) Made love: ...die Talked on the phone: about 30 mins ago IMed somebody: Last night (my depressed JP) Smiled: ...I always smile, and they're rarely true Cried: last Sat. night Laughed: today..I was all high on my meds. Took a shower/bath: this morning Drank alcohol: a long-ass time ago (like a couple months ago) Did drugs: not illegal ones yo Smoked a cigarette: eew {Other} Favourite quote(s): "Sometimes the best job for a man is a Woman" 2 comments|post comment

random survey [05 Dec 2002|10:08pm] 1. If there were 3 wells (love, beauty and creativity) and you could only drink from one, which would you drink from? love 2. With problems, whom do you run to? ...in the past, a blade...now, myself 3. Which finger is your favorite? lol.. middle! 4. What's the most disgusting thing you've ever eaten? uh...i dunno... 5. Would you kill someone? mabye 6. Explain: no :P 7. If you were making a movie about yourself, who would play the lead? Eden Riegel 8. Do you like your handwriting? no 9. Who are you jealous of? either laura or natalia 10. What kind of person do you want to marry? i dunno...who cares! as long as they love me.. 11. Unluckiness? whatever 12. What do you put on your sandwiches? who cares! 13. Do you think people on the Gap commercials are cool? psh, no 14. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? no...I'm a HORRIBLE friend...or so Deanne says...and I'm retarded and ugly and worthless :) 15. Are you a daredevil? i don't think so...it depends whether I'm suicidal or not 16. How big was the biggest mango you ever ate? Mango! I've only had the ones in jars 17. Have you ever told a secret you swore you'd never repeat? i don't think anyome trusts me 18. What do you think is the most attractive animated character? lol um...Lara Croft 19. Do looks matter? personality and smell matter more 20. Color? black 21. Do you pray? fuck no 22. Are you trendy? possibly...if I shop with someone who is.. 23. What do you do to prevent anger? cry, cut, sleep 24. Who is your idol? Xena! 25. Who is your second family? lol..uh... 26. Do you trust others easily? not really 27. What was your favorite toy as a child? barbies and bathtub toys 2 comments|post comment

[29 Nov 2002|06:25pm] [ mood | depressed ] I am the stupidest person ever. ok, I am below adverage in like everything like a dumb-ass. I got a 20 on my ACTs and a 410 in verbal and 470 in math for the SATs. And I plan to go to college HA! I cannot believe how fucking stupid I am. Man, I was starting to feel remotely happy too. Then everyone bugs me about college and shit. I would so not survive in college. First of all, the stupidity...and I'm fucking lazy as hell. I've had all kinds of shit to make up from when I was at the hospital but have I done ANY of it? Nope. Yeah, so that fits into my stupidity...see I COOUULd do better but I don't want to cuz it's just way to much fucking effort to do anything. I jut wanna sleep for the rest of my live and do nothing if no one will let me die. 10 comments|post comment

~*~Baby all I need for you to know is...~*~ [18 Nov 2002|06:32pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Nelly Furtado - I'm Like a Bird ] uh...here be a Jenny conversation... Session Start (ICQ - 136296480:Jenny): Mon Nov 18 15:37:34 2002 Hersheyposh: Hey, I was just wondering if you were gonna get Katrina's costume...a little person on Thursday said you were gonna and I didn't have to ..so I'm just making sure Session Close (Jenny): Mon Nov 18 15:38:30 2002 Session Start (ICQ - 136296480:Jenny): Mon Nov 18 15:39:36 2002 Jenny: I don't know. Her mom called me and said we'd work it out this week sometime... If you see her regularly, it'd be nice to have you do it, but it is my responsibility... Hersheyposh: oh ok...I don't see her, I just have her phone #.. Jenny: ah. Session Close (Jenny): Mon Nov 18 15:44:16 2002 Session Start (ICQ - 136296480:Jenny): Mon Nov 18 15:51:30 2002 Hersheyposh: hey are you doing anything for the performance on thursday? Jenny: No. I'll be in class at that time. My group has a presentation to finish... Hersheyposh: oh yeah...do you know if kim knows the schedule? cuz it was emailed to me ^_^ Jenny: Glad to hear that. I htink you guys are on at 4:15...right? Hersheyposh: yup Jenny: You ready for this weekend? Hersheyposh: uh...as ready as everyone else I guess Jenny: Have you finished the little assignment I gave you when you were int he hospital? Hersheyposh: I can't wait till this weekend cuz then it will finally be over Jenny: I hate to call it an assignment... Jenny: it will be over. Is this a good thing? Hersheyposh: yeah Hersheyposh: Kim pissed me off...and I'm not sure what I'd say in it Jenny: I'm not surprised. Hersheyposh: why? Jenny: You and she have similar temperaments. Fiery. You're stubborn in your own way, just like she is. Hersheyposh: I can't believe we have to be partners.... Jenny: It seriously bugs her that you would think yourself so important as to drop your responsibilities because you feel like it. Hersheyposh: sorry...I hit the button too fast Jenny: It seemed like you were scared of her Saturday Hersheyposh: yeah I was shaking cuz my meds make me shake all kinds when I'm around a bunch of people and/or I'm nervous...I seriously thought I was gonna puke...I was sick when I got home...cuz of being there...That's kinda why I didn't say earlier for class Hersheyposh: grr..I'm shaking now just talking about it Jenny: Kim meant it when she said that the only reason she and I are trying to help you is because we love you. That's of course not romantic love... I dont' think your shaking is caused by your meds. Anyone who is scared shakes. Hersheyposh: oh well, it never did it this much and often as it does now Jenny: This, I'd believe. Jenny: What's causing you so much trouble trying to isolate your thoughts? Hersheyposh: well let's just say after wed. I'm gonna think twice about telling anyone anything from now on.... Jenny: I'm sorry we caused that. Hersheyposh: I don't know if you should know this but I think Kim should mind her own business. I seriously don't want to go to the competition and I'm not going to take the Tech class any more. ...I cut myself up pretty bad Wed. night... Jenny: I'm trying to understand why you feel the way you do. I think Kim wants you to understand and justify the way you feel. Jenny: I noticed. Hersheyposh: I don't know either....that's kinda why I'm seeing a psychologist and a therapist and suff... Jenny: It makes me wonder why you do that. In order to get things changed when they bother you, you need to let others know. Doesn't complaining to Roxy make you feel better? Or complaining to me? Hersheyposh: They diagnosed me with Borderline Personallity Disorder Hersheyposh: I don't like talking about this stuff a lot with Roxi cuz I don't wanna scare her Jenny: You need to talk with someone. Do you tell your psych? What's borderline personality disorder? Hersheyposh: I tell her most things...um..there's this website that explains it well..want me to give it to you? Jenny: yes, please Hersheyposh: lemme find it.....this site explains some stuff too: (Link: http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/ffriend.html)http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/ffriend.html Hersheyposh: this says some stuff too..(Link: http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/bpd.html)http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/bpd.html Hersheyposh: (Link: http://www.stanford.edu/~corelli/borderline.html)http://www.stanford.edu/~corelli/borderline.html k, I won't overload you Session Close (Jenny): Mon Nov 18 16:43:56 2002 Session Start (ICQ - 136296480:Jenny): Mon Nov 18 16:44:09 2002 Jenny: Interesting. Thanks. Jenny: What do you think of the drugs you're on? Jenny: Are they helping? Hersheyposh: I don't know...I can never tell Jenny: That's not cool. I'd hope htat they'd be doing something. Sometimes I worry that they may be making your problem worse. Hersheyposh: really Jenny: I don't get to see you constantly and monitor your "condition" but I worry anyway. Hersheyposh: I never thought they could make a person worse.. Jenny: I've seen it happen occasionally. The first drug they put you on had you acting like a zombie. Hersheyposh: lol Jenny: I was scared for you. Hersheyposh: really? when? Jenny: What fun stuff have you done today? Anything entertaining? Jenny: Mostly all the time, but specifically when I saw you sitting on the floor in the dance studio shaking. Hersheyposh: um..art was fun :) and I went to Roxi's german class and cut her split ends hehe Hersheyposh: well could you tell Kim to cut it out then, please Hersheyposh: I didn;t think you care that that much... Jenny: She cares just as much as I do. She just reacts differently than I do. More strongly, too. Hersheyposh: I guess...but I never asked for her to be involved,,, Jenny: I know. But when you didn't show up for dance class because you were in the hospital, she became worried and a bit ticked. You had promised (by signing that paper) that you would show up for every class between then and this weekend, and you broke that promise Hersheyposh: well I know..and I hate myself more for doing that... Jenny: tsk, tsk, tsk. Don't do that. We forgive you. We just hope that you'd think a little before doing something like that again. Hersheyposh: well I didn't really care at the time Jenny: I figured as much. That bothers me too. I know there are times I don't care much, but I still care. I guess I don't know what it's like to not care at all. Hersheyposh: I guess not... Jenny: It was interesting to read that article on BPD saying that friends should keep showing affection to the people afflicted with this... Jenny: Makes me feel bad for not hugging you lately. Hersheyposh: oh...I figured you stoped cuz you didn;t wanna touch me..or something Jenny: No, not at all. I was afraid that me hugging you would allow you to think that I was supporting you in your homosexuality. That bothers me. I had no repulsion to you as a person. I guess I am a homophobe. I try not to be... Hersheyposh: ah i c.. Hersheyposh: yeah, that's kinda what I figured Jenny: I guess I'm not sure how to handle what I see as your 2 problems. If you were just BPD or just a Homosexual, I'd have no problem, but the 2 combined have put me in a tailspin. Hersheyposh: I really shouldn't have told you that...T'was stupid of me...I should have let my ass just get over it..I think I was really wanting attention at the time.. Jenny: That's ok. You probably needed to get it out. It probably would have gotten out anyway. Hersheyposh: try not to think about me being gay...just pretent I'm a normal straight person...cuz it doesn't really matter regarding you anymore... Jenny: I take it you've put that all behind you? At least having a crush on me... Hersheyposh: yes, I have Hersheyposh: it was stupid of me Jenny: Hopefully I can relax a little then. I guess I worry too much. Hersheyposh: and seeing how Abby is all "oh my god, Jenny's a goddess!" I hope I was never like that...It starts to get annoying after a while :) Jenny: I need to get some dinner. Jenny: Rest assured. You were never like Abby. Hersheyposh: lol! Jenny: I don't think you have the capability of ever acting like Abby. Jenny: Love her dearly, but yes, it is annoying. Hersheyposh: hehe yeah Hersheyposh: have fun eating...I'll probably stay here all night cuz I have nothing better to do Jenny: That's no fun. I'll try to think of something entertaining. There's going to be a meteor shower tonight at 2. You might want to go watch it if you can. Hersheyposh: how cool, I might :) Jenny: It's supposed to be best between 3 and 4 in the morning. I'm going out to Box Canyon to watch. Jenny: later. Hersheyposh: how cool Hersheyposh: see ya Session Close (Jenny): Mon Nov 18 17:21:32 2002 God, it took a long-ass time to do them colors...I have no life... 4 comments|post comment

Wee! First Entry... :) [17 Nov 2002|06:25pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | Michelle Branch - Goodbye to You ] Yea! I have a Livejournal! WooHoo! *ehem* thanks Jade ;) I wonder how this journal will be any different than my Deadjournal.. hmm..we shall see... ...MUHAHAHAHA... 5 comments|post comment

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